I can barely describe how I feel when I see Australian children being lined up to receive a medical procedure that our own medical authorities have stated they don't need.
I can't bear to think about the stories that will slowly emerge from this operation. The deaths and injuries that are tragic for families, made to appear to be so-called "covid deaths and symptoms" by our manipulated media.
I hardly know what questions to ask anymore. How is this possible? Why is it happening? How can we change it?
I ask these questions every day, and answers emerge gradually but it's not enough. I feel like I’m trying to save a forest after they started cutting down the trees. There’s so much momentum behind the destruction.
The most painful part is the feeling of being powerless. If I speak my perception fully and truthfully it will be suppressed and censored by the media. Many people will reject it out of hand, regardless of whether it's accurate or not, because they will put me in a box with a label and won't want to look at what's inside.
And then there's the business. I run two businesses that are good for people. It feels important that they stay stable. My personal voice wants to speak out at inconvenient times. In the middle of a launch or when I'm deeply engaged in another topic.
If I speak I'll disrupt the business. If I don't speak I betray myself and my fellow human beings.
Never in my life have I experienced feeling so divided in myself.
I understand the different sides of myself. They all feel right in their frame. The businesses are important and professional stability is essential, not only for myself and my colleagues, but also for the many people for whom the businesses create significant value in their lives.
I try to find a unified voice. One which rises above the internal division and unites all parts of myself. It gives me a larger perspective and a more spiritual view.
I can make sense of everything in this way, but if I'm honest, I can't reconcile it. I can't handle the sheer human horror at young children being hurt in the name of protection.
The lies are running so deep and the delusions are playing out like a script. Things I read more than a year ago with total disbelief are now happening.
Will that continue?
Are we really capable of creating such a dystopian world where people are dependent for their whole lives on drugs that make them sick?
I know that many people are already living that reality. They have been for years. One in three children in USA with a chronic illness? It wasn't like that when I was young in the UK. It really wasn't.
In my class at school, a couple of people had hayfever in early summer. I don't remember any asthma, allergies, autoimmune diseases or anything remotely similar. We got colds. Occasionally we had flu, which was pretty horrible. That was it.
Now we live in a world where we can see with our own eyes what's wrong. It doesn't take a scientist to explain why plastic garbage floating in the ocean is bad. Or why adding highly toxic chemicals to our food and water supplies is wrong.
No one in their right mind would allow these kinds of things to happen. And when they see the consequences they would immediately take action to reverse the damage by cleaning up and removing the toxins. Wouldn't they?
They talk about mass psychosis formation. I get it. It feels like that is what's happening. But I can't accept that. If we are experiencing mass psychosis we are no longer responsible for our own actions.
What do we do as a society with psychotic people? We lock them up and drug them.
Hmmmm. Really?
So where to turn now?
How to be fully human and fully alive in today's world?
Is it simply to face the pain and keep going?
Fight for a cause so I can put my energy into something so I don't feel my days are wasted?
Put my head down and focus on my business? At least I know I’m making a positive difference there.
Be positive and hope it will all stop one day?
Or believe the guy who says that all computer simulations of the future lead to the same outcome-a mass awakening of consciousness?
Of course, the last option is the one I want to choose. I'm sure it's true. The same information comes from so many sources. The indigenous peoples’ ancient prophecies, the modern spiritual channels and the most sophisticated computer programs in the US military all say the same thing.
So why is it so hard to trust that and relax?
Because today, children across Australia are being queued up by their parents to have a medical intervention that will be fatal to some of them, permanently damaging to others and dangerous to all of them in the long term. At least that's what the data is showing.
There is no informed consent. In many cases children will persuade their parents that they want it. If they don't have it they will be teased and rejected at school. What child has been equipped by their parents or their school to have the strength to handle all that?
And we are letting this happen. I am letting this happen because I don't know how to stop it. I don't how to do more in my busy business schedule. I don't know how to reconcile the different parts of myself. The part that wants to speak openly and sincerely about what I've learned and what I'm seeing. And the part that genuinely needs to be professional, stable and provide guidance and support to people who are looking for a better way to live.
There is nothing I've learned in my entire life that has prepared me for this moment.
I'm going to have to go into territory I've never even imagined to find a way forward that works for me.
Let's be clear. I'm not crying. I'm not devastated. I'm not broken or depressed or in despair.
But I didn't sleep well last night. I can't stop thinking about those children.
I used to work with children. I spent thousands of hours listening to them, recording beautiful conversations with them for BBC Radio. They shared their hearts with me. We talked for hours at a time. They showed me their secret hiding places and told me things they never told their parents.
I know that if we were honest with them, they would not choose what's happening now. They would see clearly that it doesn't make sense and is not in their interest. They would persuade their parents to give up boosters, just as they used to persuade their parents to give up smoking.
A society that betrays its children is a society that is abandoned its values, ethics and soul.
I don't care if we've been betraying our children for thousands of years.
We know better than this. We are capable of better than this. We MUST do better than this.
This is the first of a two part series. Read Part 2.
I am in the process of facing the truth of the mass abuse of children--and women--the Jeffrey Epstein case, as well as a client and a personal friend are opening my eyes in a way that I can't deny. I am asking myself what I can do--I am asking my higher self what I can do. I'm going to keep asking this question and look for small things as well as the big things. The feelings of powerlessness and fear are intense. But those feelings aren't the final answer, that's for sure.